Just Tired

Sometimes I think it's rather funny that though you want to go to a certain direction, actually you're moving to the opposite one.

I tried my best to fight back to end a sour relationship. Although we can still be friends, roommates or even families, it is not likely for us to go back to where we were. On top of this condition, there is nothing wrong meeting or seeing new guys out there.

It is also not uncommon that most of the time I get fond of those who don't have feelings for me or I don't have feelings for those who like me. Of course, I understand that it is not an easy task to find the right one, but recently, I felt quite depressed from continuous failure. I wonder that if I don't make contact with those "wrong" people, maybe everything will be simpler and my emotions can be steadier.

In the end, from all the information I've got from the past ten months, they seem to all indicate that going back is the easiest way to solve the problem. And then I don't need to worry about these complicated interpersonal issues. However, it means that I have to sacrifice what I want in my mind, in order to quickly get these things done. Honestly speaking, I also don't know if going back is a possible way.

At times I feel tired of all this and can't carry on. I just want to leave all behind, but I know this is not right. I just hope that I can have more strength to stick to my goal and keep moving toward. Need more blessings!